There has to be certainty in life. Uncertainty is the antithesis of the mind. Mind needs security. Mind equates insecurity with death. Death of the mind will be resisted at all costs by the mind. Hence we see the agitation caused due to perceived insecurity.
This insecurity expresses
itself in the areas of finance, relationships, daily living, etc. Let me consider
the aspect which has haunted me the most. The one related to the job market and
employability. I don’t know how I got into this conundrum. I definitely know intellectually
that I was not in control of my life at any point in life, but the mind hasn’t understood
this and is not mature enough currently to understand the gravity of this statement.
I was caught in the current UPSC
exam preparation and lost almost 8 years to this. Again I should not call this lost
as nothing is lost or gained here in this world. All is pre-decided. But considering
this puny mind that it is, they are lost, for the corporate world, they are
certainly lost. 8 years is a huge gap that cannot be justified anywhere in the
world. Though now I have a secure job environment currently as the business
development manager at Pyramid Valley International Bangalore. But I cannot
stay here for long. My wife is pregnant, and will have the child soon after a few
months, then she can't stay here, as there are very less facilities here. If she
isn’t here then I cannot also reside here permanently. I will have to come and
go repeatedly. Can I afford to do this? I don’t know. Then another issue is of
the low salary. With the expansion in the family, I will need more funds to satisfy
the family needs. I cannot ignore the value richness and happiness that money
brings with it.
Hence there are several
reasons as to why I will need to move on next year. But the question is where
shall I go. I don’t know currently. Should I opt for a family business back home
at Jabalpur? Should I look for data analyst/scientist roles elsewhere? Should I
go to Shashi Dhar gowda shoper company for the employment of me and my wife? There
are big questions and the answers to which I cannot see currently. Perhaps it
is in my best interest to not know them and know only when they appear in front
of me.
The best option is to trust
what respected Shri Atmananda, my guru has said, and that is nothing is in my
i.e. body-mind control because body and mind are the dead objects of the alive
consciousness, hence body-mind cannot know anything. It’s the awareness that
knows everything. Then the mind must trust awareness for every answer and not
cry for every situation.
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